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  I walked to Jessup’s Lexus. “I thought you didn’t like Burger King,” I said to him, as I got comfortable in his seat.

  “I don’t. Pat wanted it. It’s my turn to get the lunch today. He just have to eat what I and Kauzie is eating,” Jessup laughed. Jessup is very handsome. Unlike Kauzie, he sported a haircut. He and Kauzie resembled each other a lot, with the exception that Kauzie was taller and had that thug aura about him. Jessup was more of the smooth talking ladies’ man.

  When we pulled up to the body shop, I almost creamed in my panties. Kauzie was sweaty and dirty without a shirt on. His cargos sagged as he jacked a car up on some long pole thing. His long dreads were pulled back. Kauzie didn’t have tattoos on his chest, but his arms and back were covered with them.

  “You planning on sitting in this hot ass car?” Jessup asked me snapping me out of my daydream.

  I got out of the car. “What are you doing here, girl? Why aren’t you working?” Kauzie asked me.

  “I got fired,” I said sadly.

  “Good. I didn’t like that job anyway,” Kauzie said.

  I slapped his arm. “Nigga, who is supposed to pay my bills?” I asked him.

  “I gotcha shorty. Don’t worry about that small shit,” he said licking his full lips. His bottom row diamond grill looked so sexy in his mouth. A dread fell down his face making him look like an exotic god. The man was just gorgeous.

  “Y’all got this? I’m out,” Kauzie said walking into his office. He came back out with a Riding Clean t-shirt on.

  “Heyyyy, Tokyo. What are you doing tonight?” Pat asked me. Pat was cute in a Justin Beiber type of way, but he tried too hard to be black. He was a fun person to party with because he went overboard to have fun.

  “What the fuck did I tell you about that shit?” Kauzie asked him. Jessup and Pat laughed.

  “You don’t want your lunch?” Jessup asked him.

  “Naw, I’m about to go to lunch with Tokyo,” Kauzie said walking to his pick-up truck. After I got in, he pulled off.

  “Talk to me, Tokyo,” Kauzie said leaning back in his seat starring a hole into me.

  I told him what happened between Darrion, Keshawna, and me. I told him everything. I was glad Jessup was there because I would’ve gotten locked up. After I told him how Darrion was man handling me, I broke down.

  “I’m soooo tired, Kauzie,” I sobbed. His hand massaged the back of my neck.

  “What I tell you about that? Don’t cry over that nigga. He isn’t worth it. When I see that nigga I’m fucking him up. I might smack his bitch too. That shit was foul, damn it. I swear I want to kill that nigga,” Kauzie fussed. My phone rang and it was Darrion.

  Kauzie snatched my phone from me then answered it.

  “You put your hands on Tokyo? What the fuck did I tell you nigga? What, you think my word ain’t bond or some shit? Nigga, when I see you, I’m fucking you up. You are a bitch-made nigga.” Kauzie spoke into the phone.

  “Where are you at now nigga? I don’t talk over the phone. Matter of fact nigga, I’m going to find you. I know where you hang out at,” Kauzie said. I can hear Darrion yelling into the phone, as Kauzie hung up on him.

  “Call and get your fucking number changed now. That nigga call you again I’m fucking the both of y’all up. That nigga shouldn’t be fucking calling you all of the time anyway,” Kauzie said. This nigga’s attitude was the worst.

  “I wish you shut the fuck up. I have a fucking headache,” I yelled at him. He smirked then licked his lips.

  “Who are you yelling at like that girl? Don’t make me pull over. I might spank that ass. You are looking a little thick back there,” he said bluntly catching me by surprise.

  “So, you looking at my ass now?” I asked him.

  “I been looking. Shit, I’m a man shorty. I can be your homie all day, but when you walk those ass cheeks be singing my name,” he said. I mushed him playfully.

  “Stop flirting with me. This shit has been weird the past couple of days,” I said. He chuckled and the rest of the ride was silent. We grabbed something to eat from a seafood spot. I love fried fish.

  We pulled up in my neighborhood. I got out, and Kauzie followed behind me.

  I hated that he knew I lived in this place, but I refused to take handouts. The money he gave me did come in handy. I was even able to hit up Torrid’s clearance rack. I put my key in the door and Kauzie pressed his body into the back of mine. I pushed him into Kiwanna’s door.

  “Stop that or else I will make you go home,” I said pissed off that I wanted my sister’s boyfriend.

  “Shut that shit up. Move out of my way. I need to sit on the toilet. That potato salad is making my stomach bubble,” Kauzie said.

  “Ewwww, nigga,” I said laughing. While Kauzie used the small bathroom by the kitchen, I went into the main bathroom to take a shower. I turned on the water then stripped down. I stared at myself in the mirror as the shower ran. My red bright braids and black lipstick, made me look crazy. My long, lime green nails were pointy and sharp. My long eyelashes flared out. Underneath it all, I was just Tokyo. I know I could be ratchet and couldn’t pronounce certain words, but underneath it all, I love hard.

  A tear slipped out of my eye as I thought back to earlier. What Keshawna said to me hurt my feelings, and the fact that Darrion didn’t defend me. At one point of time in my life, I would’ve done anything for him.

  After I took my hot relaxing shower, I wrapped myself up in a towel. I hurried to my room then locked the door. I dried off then oiled my body down. I put on a white camisole and gray leggings. I went into the bathroom to grab my dirty clothes and dropped them in the hamper in my room.

  Kauzie was stretched out on my couch watching TV. I sat down in the loveseat.

  “Why are you sitting over there? Damn shorty, I don’t bite,” he laughed.

  “Why do you keep doing that? Why do you keep acting like you are my man? You are with my sister, Kauzie,” I said frustrated.

  “I had you first,” he said to me.

  “Friends, Kauzie. You knew me first, but you ended up with Tassana,” I said to him.

  “I know,” he said quietly. I went into the kitchen to get a Coors Light out of the fridge. When I turned around, Kauzie was standing there blocking the entranceway. His eyes lustfully stared at my round breasts. He walked closer to me and I backed up into the counter.

  He took the beer out of my hand, setting it down on the counter.

  “What the hell is your crazy looking ass about to do?” I asked. He pressed his body against mine as he did when we were in front of No Hands’ house. His strong hand gripped the back of my neck firmly. He bent down then kissed me.

  “This is sooooo wrong,” I said as I tried to push him.

  “Sshhhhh,” he said as his hand rubbed me between my legs. I tried to move his hand, but he gripped my leggings, roughly pulling them down.

  “What the fuck. Nigga, is you crazy?” I asked him trying to cover my pussy up. He smacked my hand away.

  “Stop being stingy,” he said slipping his finger into my wet center.

  “Stop,” I said then moaned. I’m going to hell for this. I shouldn’t be enjoying him like this. I shouldn’t be responding to his touches. My pussy shouldn’t ache for him to enter my fleshy folds of wetness.

  “You don’t want me to. And honestly, if you did, I couldn’t stop. I need it, Tokyo. Only if it’s this one time. I just need to feel you,” he said unzipping his pants. For the first time, I got to see Kauzie’s dick.

  “WHAT THE FUCK? OH, HELL NAW!” I said as I eyed his gigantic dick. I heard rumors about some island men, but this here wasn’t right. This nigga was too fine for a dick this big. He had an ugly nigga’s dick. I’m not saying his tool was ugly, I was saying most ugly men be packing this type of equipment.

  “Stop playing,” he said coming closer to me. He slid my camisole down and my breasts sprung out. He hungrily took them into his mouth. The feeling was unexplainable. I saw sparks, and then I
saw myself running in a field of flowers. Wait, did I die and go to heaven? I thought to myself.

  “Just this one time,” he said as he lifted me up onto the counter. I pulled his shirt over his head. Although he was sweating earlier, he still smelled clean. I sucked on his neck as he hungrily attacked my nipples. A pleasurable moan escaped my lips as Kauzie’s long fingers played with my button.

  “Damn, you are wet.” I was squirming as my body trembled.

  “Sssssssssssssshhhhhhitttttt,” I hissed, as his wide head pierced through my walls. He licked my lips then held still giving my pussy time to wake up. I had never taken dick this big before. He grabbed my left breast then hungrily sucked on my nipple. His tongue snaked around my nipple then he pulled it in between his teeth. He squeezed as he sucked like he was nursing. My pussy got wetter, as he slid more of himself into me.

  I dug my nails into his shoulders as he continued to slide more into me. He sucked my ear then licked it. He grabbed my braids pulling my head back exposing my neck. He kissed my neck then sucked on it, as he maneuvered his big dick inside of me. I felt all of him, even the thick veins. The feeling he gave me was euphoric. This was what was meant for me. He was made for me… but he doesn’t belong to me.

  I wrapped my legs around his waist. His hands slid underneath my ass, opening me up more for him.

  His hands gripped me in places that never been touched. My body burned from his kisses. My toes curled up as he reached my spot.

  “OHHHHHHHHHH, SHIIIITTTTTTTTT,” I moaned. He scooted me further down the counter. I was barely on it now. My bottom was hanging off. If this nigga dropped my big ass, I was fucking him up. He lifted my legs up, crossing them. I was pinned between him and the counter. He pulled out then slammed his dick so far into me; my pussy creamed so much I could feel the thick, greasy fluid run down my butt crack.

  “Shit, Tokyo, damn,” he bit his lip, as he moved in and out of me.

  “KAUUZZIIIIIEEEEEEEEE,” I moaned his name as he fucked me like he never had sex before. He reached every nook and cranny inside of me.

  My breasts bounced as he roughly screwed me. I moaned until I heard knocking on the door.

  “Bitch, I can hear you fucking all the way out here,” Kiwanna shouted from outside of my door. I ignored her as Kauzie worked that big dick of his. He put me down seconds later. His thick long dick was greased with my cum.

  “We need go to the bed,” he said. As soon as we hit the mattress, that was it. He stretched my pussy from here to Mexico. I thought some little Mexicans might hop out of my vagina shaking their maracas.

  “OOOOOHHHHHHHHH,” I moaned as he grinded into me from the back.

  “Arch that big ass, Tokyo. That’s it gyal,” he said. His accent comes out when he is fucking? I wondered. He pulled my braids then slapped my ass. I grinded into him then he stopped moving. I looked into the mirror in front of us. Kauzie had his arms crossed, as he lustfully looked down at my pussy grinding against him. That arrogant fucker.

  “Work that shit, shorty. Yes, just like that. Drain this dick,” he slapped my ass.

  “I’m about to cummmmmmmmmmmm!” I screamed as my ass slammed against his pelvis area.

  “Damn, I love you,” Kauzie moaned. He opened my ass cheeks and a finger slipped into my ass.

  “WAIT,” I said. I had never had anything in my ass before.

  “Shut the fuck up real quick,” he said inserting another one. His long fingers moved around in my ass as his dick stuffed me.

  “AARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!” I screamed as he brought me to the biggest orgasm I ever experienced.

  “Cum on that shit,” he moaned going faster.

  “URRGHHHHHHHHHHHH, FUCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK,” he groaned, as he pumped his seeds into me. He collapsed on top of me and kissed my shoulder.

  He rolled me over then kissed my lips, then my neck.

  “I’m tired,” I said rubbing my fingers through his hair.

  “So what,” he said kissing my neck.

  “I just fucked my sister’s man,” I said pushing him off.

  “I never belonged to her, Tokyo,” he said.

  “Go home, Kauzie. My life is already a mess. How much complication does it need?” I asked him.

  “Shut up, Tokyo. I’m about to take a shower then go to sleep. We need to figure out some shit in the morning,” he said yawning.

  “Shit like what?” I asked with my eyebrow raised.

  “Your living arrangements, I got you girl. Just focus on finishing school,” he said to me.

  “Hell no, I did that crap with Darrion. I’m not letting a man control my life. I’m finding me another job,” I said.

  “Whatever. But you are moving from here,” he said walking out of my bedroom.

  Tassana

  “When the fuck are you leaving him, huh? I been told you that I’m tired of being your fucking side nigga,” Tudos yelled at me. I sat on his couch with my arms crossed as he paced back and forth.

  “What is your problem?” I asked Tudos.

  “I’ve been fucking you since I was sixteen. I’ve been fucking with you almost as long as Kauzie have been. I’m sick of this shit,” Tudos said to me.

  “I’m sorry,” I cried.

  “Bitch, you are sorry. You only hooked up with him because your dingy ass sister wanted him. I let the shit ride for years because I was focused on getting money, but now I’m sick of that shit. I also hate that I’m fucking you behind my nigga’s back, but my feelings are involved,” Tudos fussed. His handsome face was etched with confusion and shame. I know he felt bad because he and Kauzie had been friends for years, but it just happened.

  I never wanted Kauzie like that, but I was jealous of his bond with my sister. I read in her diary when we were thirteen about how much she liked Kauzie. From that day forward, I started flirting with him. Tokyo never kept her hair done and she dressed any kind of way.

  I wasn’t dumb though. No matter how much I love Tudos, his life wasn’t made for me. He wanted to be a dope boy. I’ll be damned if I end up like Tokyo’s dumbass flipping burgers. I was not being nobody’s down bitch. Kauzie was on his grind legally. Although he hung out in the streets, the last thing on his mind was selling drugs. Kauzie was going somewhere in life. Only place Tudos was going was to a grave or jail.

  Kauzie was a good man and over the years, I had grown to love him. I love him and Tudos both, but Tudos didn’t have any ambition. Kauzie was done with me and I had to figure out a way to stay around. He was my comfort zone. There was no other man out here like him and I’ll be darn if I ruined it. I needed to figure out a way to keep Tudos happy and get Kauzie to love me again.

  “Watch your mouth, Tudos,” I said grabbing my purse.

  “Where the fuck are you going? You just got here,” Tudos said crossing his arms and licking his lips. Damn, I love him. I would like to just run off with him and live happily, but it wouldn’t last long. He was a street thug, the type of man my parents hated. That was why Tokyo left home and had never been back. Our parents hated Darrion, but Tokyo was so much in love with him she did anything for him.

  “I need to go home. Kauzie is threatening to put me out,” I said. Tudos jacked me up. “YOU BELONG HERE,” he said with anger in his eyes.

  “In due time, I just need to take care of a few things. I just can’t leave him like that. I need to figure out a way to keep the peace,” I said kissing his lips. He kissed me back with so much passion I burned with desire. I wanted him just as badly as he wanted me.

  “I love you, Tassana, I want you. You need to leave that nigga,” he said.

  “I love you, too. I will call you when I get home,” I said. I kissed his lips then walked out of his condo. A tear slipped from my eye because deep down I knew I couldn’t give Tudos what he wanted.

  When I pulled up in the driveway, Kauzie’s truck wasn’t there. It was three in the morning. I walked into the house and the smell of his cologne hit me. I called his phone, but it was off. He must be with that bitch,
Mya. I wrapped my hair then tied it up. I hopped into the shower, washing the scent from Tudos off me. When I got out, I dried off then slipped into some shorts and a t-shirt. I went into the living room and turned the television on. I fell asleep on the couch waiting for Kauzie to come home.

  The alarm chirped then the door shut. I wiped the sleep from my eyes as I woke up on the couch.

  Kauzie walked past me without a care in the world.

  “Where the fuck have you been?” I asked him following behind him. He ignored me as he went through the mail on the kitchen island. He opened up an envelope then shook his head.